June 2005

When I have no good idea what to blah, I will read back my archives.
Damn, I sure can blahed last year.
Just for June itself, the entries are long and long...that I got tired of scrolling down and reading backwards.

I just started my current job then and blardy heck, what happened to time? 2 years passed and I am still with them.
Honestly I like my job (when I'm upbeat enough), I like the people here but I just didn't quite like my pay.
I am constantly trading the in-monetary with the monetary perks.

I am a lil' bemused by myself when I realised how much a person I had become when I didn't quite want to become like someone today.
What I mean is that you know...while you were younger, you often swore that you would not just become another working ind-uhvidual in the society. But I realised this is how the society shapes you to be.
Society culture, work nature and many other factors morphe you into just another person in the working world.

I'm not trading my dreams or my soul. I dont have big ambition to start off with, neither a vivid dream to aspire to. I am just the type that live up from day to day and want daily happiness and romance and simple bliss.
Some people dream big(tell me about the astronaut story again) but I come to realised that not everyone would exactly have a dream. (I think)
If you really were to put it that way, I guess my 'dream' is what I just mentioned. Daily happiness, romances and simple bliss. The cream would be able to sightsee the world without paying and working. HAHAHAHHAHA!

You know...I'm turning 23 soon.
23.
Then you have 24 and quater century. How cruel it is to categorize us to age groups? I often think we would all live longer if age is never invented.
Oh well.

I dunno if you have the time, but maybe if you are really, REALLY bored, go to my archives. Some were really long and I wondered where in the first place did I find those kinda thoughts and energy.
Maybe it's youth..then.

Gd night.